I'm Just Tired....

The girls are sick with 104+ fever due to the Pharyngoconjunctival Fever. I didn't take them to the pediatrician for the diagnosis, it has 1/2 of their class at school out sick. I'm trying to keep the boys healthy, but not optimistic. Despite the added strain and up during the night for fever checks and medicine, that's not really why I'm tired.

I'm tired of worrying that someone won't like the color of their Flintstones vitamin in the morning.  I'm tired of worrying that someone might sit in Jadons claimed seat on the sofa or Cody might grab a handful of Kaylee's hair.  I'm tired of "I want to watch Beauty and the Beast"..."NO!!! I wanted to watch Peter Pan!!!" or "AHHHHHH,Kaylee flushed my poo poo!!!  I wanted to flush my poo poo."!!!!!!

There are a million and one things that trigger melt downs in this house and trying to mitigate them all is like walking through a mine field morning, noon, and night. When something doesn't go someone's way, do they respond with "Mommy, can you help me?" NO.... they respond with ear shattering screaming and crying.... then 1/2 the time I don't know who instigated the incident to know who to punish. I cringe when I see Cody open a "NO NO" cabinet. When I tell him "NO", I create more emotional drama. He wants to do what he can't do and won't do what he has to do. I dread putting him in a car seat because he fights it tooth and nail (a problem I never had with the triplets). Really, he fights everything; getting dressed, brushing teeth, going upstairs... you name it.

I often feel four kids the same age would be easier than 3 and one younger. Let's imagine, the triplets are all playing nice... bring on the toddler... chaos. He is just too young to join in most of their activities.

My day is spent trying to defuse the emotions of 4 little bodies. Most sane people even if they have a lot of kids have about a 2 year spread... (Ahhh a 2 year old, 4 year old, 6 year old, and 8 year old).... I'm sure it comes with it's own set of problems don't get me wrong, but it sounds nice.

Sigh... venting to whoever is out there. My Mom was a stay at homer of 2 small kids and she admits this is a far different experience. The work is never ending and I often feel out of control and I'm tired....Today anyway. Each day is different and some better than others, so I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow..........

Thanks for letting me rant and vent....  Oh, did I mention I also took on a part time job editing photos???? Am I crazy or what????